About me

I am a girl, living in Sweden & turning 19 soon. I have been struggling with my weight ever since the beginning of 8th grade. I remember being a bit chubby child, never overweighted, but chubby. I have always loved exercise and working out, so the main problem has always been the unhealthy food. Due to the fact that I was a bit chubby child, I lost a quite much weight during the 8th grade, which however came back during the 9th grade. Throughout my high school years, I lived in that weight ( around 57-59 kg) which I was great deal " disappointed " about. I felt always chubbier than other girls and I never truly felt confident about my body. However I succeeded to loose around 6 kg during the summer 2012, which came unfortunately back due to the fact that I barely ate anything back then. Thus as soon as I gave some slack and started eating more normally, I gained my weight back to 59 kg. My "new attempt" to loose weight was very successful and healthy during autumn 2012, when I weighted around 51-52 kg, which for the first time in my life, made me feel confident and happy about myself. However I was a senior in high school. When my massive final exams  & stress nocked on the door, I ditched almost all exercise & working out among my healthy eating habits and gave in to junk food from pizza and chips to chocolate and candy. I survived through my final exams, but  my weight raised back to the 59 kg. Couple days ago I realized that my JOJO -weight loss system, from healthy to unhealthy and back to starving myself, will not work. It´s not good or healthy way to live my life. 

 The final drop was when I had successfully had an healthy eating day but my mother had bought a bag of salt & vinegar chips ( which still are one of my biggest weaknesses) and OFC I ended up eating a small cup of those chips, though I had earlier promised myself that "no more junk food"! After eating that small bowl of chips I realized something, I do not want to chub into my mouth unhealthy & highly processed foods with full of unhealthy fats and sugars. I want to have a long, healthy life and eat foods, vitamins and proteins which my body truly needs and which eating makes me happy. Furthermore I dont want to get the "hot summer body" by starving myself 4 weeks before the summer break.... because lets face it those 4 weeks long lasting diets will sooner or later, crash and burn. Therefore I want to make a lifestyle change and to get hot body  and embrace it everyday of every year.

I am also currently staying in Spain as au pair ( for 6 weeks) and also going to be updating and telling about my experiences here as an au pair!!